Don't Hate Rain.

You know what I love … RAIN!!!  

Rain is so often poorly spoken about it. People curse it, wish it were sunny, and most people, well they hate it. I was one of those people. I saw rain as a major inconvenience, something that stopped me from doing what wanted to do. I saw it as uncomfortable, cold and wet. Now I see otherwise.

Now I see the perfection in it. How (where I live) it rains mostly during this time of year – spring. It rains so our flowers can bloom and our crops can flourish. It rains to fill our dams with drinking water so come summer in the blastering heat we can enjoy an abundance of fresh water. It fills our lakes and rivers and washes away winters waste.

Rain is life. Rain provides us life and without it we could not survive. Rain is a blessing and I don’t know any other way to look it.

I Was Once ....

Today I took a trip down memory lane. It wasn't a very long trip because it is a memory that will never leave me. It is so much a part of who I am today and I live with this memory daily as it continues to affect my life both positively and negatively.

I was once fat. Not a little porky but fat. I spent many years overweight and those who went to highschool with me probably remember me this way. I don't even think I've ever shared this my partner Luke as for some reason I've been too ashamed to admit it. Perhaps fear that he would no longer love me.  However I musn't be as today I was thinking about how much of a blessing it was. It taught me how strong I am and how any one of us can change.

So today I am grateful to all those people in highschool who teased me, hurt me, bullied me and made me fear going to school. But above all who made me hate myself. I thank you. I sincerely thank you because had you not have made me hate myself I never would have learnt to love myself.

They say you have to reach rock bottom before you make your way to the top. Well that was my rock bottom and since then I have been climbing my way back to the top. Never lose faith. The only way up is from down.

I also must add to anyone who is facing weight problems. It is ok. You are ok. You are not your body anymore than you are the clothes you wear. You are that sparkle of light that shines from the inside. Let it shine and all else will fade away.

Rain, Rain, Rain. Don't Wish It Away.

Rain. I love it. Never use to but I do now.

I love the smell of it, the sound of it, the way it makes me feel and of course what it does for us all and this earth.

I am grateful for the glorious rain that poured down on me from above today as it had me thinking ....

Why does rain have such a bad reputation?

Rain is glorious. Why let something that is simply only just drops of water ruin your plans? I know I don't.

Years ago I remember walking my dog in the rain. It wasn't just light rain either, but the full on, its going to storm soon rain. We got wet. Really wet but so what? It wasn't painful although by some of the looks I was getting you could have sworn I was out walking the dog naked.

I still remember that day. My dog loved his walks, he wanted one every morning. This morning was no different except that it was raining and hard. I went to tell him 'Sorry buddy not today its raining' then I stopped and asked myself "why not? - why not walk him?"

My dog obviously didn't care or was giving it any second thought so why should I?  It was only water and what is the worst that could happen? I'd get wet.

Well I did get wet. I got soaked. But you know what I loved most. That I did it. That I made my dog one very happy dog that morning and in return I gained a beautiful insight. That nothing is ever as bad as it seems and after the rain comes a rainbow.

My rainbow that morning was the feeling it gave me.  The strength inside myself that I didn't know I had when I went against everything I had ever been told about going out in the rain. And I didn't even catch a cold .... who would have thought.

So as the wonderful Bob Marley said ...

"Some people feel the rain, others just get wet".  That morning I felt the rain.

Peace at the Park.



Blessings in disguise. They happen every day. Well to me they do but perhaps that is because I look for them. I see an everyday situation and look for the good in it, the blessing.  Today was no different...

School holidays. All kids at home and me having only just put my spoon down from finishing breakfast, I hear the inevitable "I'm bored" "What are we going to do today".

After the night I just had I didn't want to do anything. I would have rather slept, relaxed and did anything but take three children out in public. But I did. Why? Because I'm awesome. No seriously its because I couldn't handle the "I'm bored ... where are we going today"  which was on repeat by my eldest.. So I packed them all up and headed for the nearest park I could find.

I complained all the way. 'I don't want to do this' 'why am I doing this' 'Its too hot for this' etc etc. All this was going on inside my head. Then we arrived and it all changed. The blessing came.

My boys jumped out of the car with such enthusiasm, such excitement, it was almost contagious. I followed them to the park and sat down to watch them. As I did I began to notice something. I started to feel peaceful. I was sitting on this warms summers day in the beautiful sunshine watching my children laughing and having fun. They were so happy and I was happy I had made them happy. I was relaxed and this was the perfect afternoon and the perfect way to spend the day. I just didn't realise it.

The blessing was discovering that not always do I know best. I learnt today that sometimes it is our children who know best. We can all learn so much from them and about life. I learnt that today I had a choice. To sit at home feeling sorry for myself or to go out enjoy the day and play anyway. I know which choice I would have chosen today if it wasn't for my eldest. Thank you son xxx